April 2014

Well, today is a Solar Eclipse.... whoo hoo.

I have begun a FB page about God and how do we support him. I have also done a Tweeter acc't..Have fun!!

Also, in other news....recent news have discovered a nuisance {similar to Tidbits}. Read the tags and that is what this person is!!

Tweeter!

Facebook!

Greatness in the form of strangers

Today brought the best news in six months time!!! However, I cannot tell you what it is due to people who have chose to make me an adversary {in their mind} -- "Let go and let God". When you intentionally create stress for others it, comes back to haunt. Anywho........
Well, due to the aforementioned, I will not be telling of my dreams, hopes, and wishes here on Blogger.....well, not important ones anyway. I will be writing on Myspace {if you are a friend u can actually read--as some are private and soome are open}. The adversaries again. %##&*!! Oh well. Next!
Anyways, the news is just wonderful!!!! Happy, Happy, Joy Joy! Aaahhh, asking for blessings, going to church and having people {complete strangers} pray for you, and meeting an angel who ministers the word of God to my mother and I is the heart of it {and how it started}.
When everything is completed, I will let everyone know.

June did not bring my plans to fruition--but brought another gift

{and I still have to go to the studio to rehearse my Rep Series---in July}

A Depressed Dancer - poetry {NEW}

Why am I depressed?
Why don’t feel the energy to get out of bed and dance
I haven’t been to class
I don’t feel like going to class

Why am I depressed?
Only teaching makes me feel better
I tell everyone I love dance
I am a professional dancer
Teacher
Choreographer
But yet I am depressed

Why am still depressed?
I have a boyfriend, career, my own dance ensemble, freelance work, and much more
Everyone thinks I am wonderful

I am depressed because the battle I was fighting I suddenly lost
I am depressed because I told boldfaced lies to one person
Was two-faced towards one person
Treated one person with such hatred
In the end I guess God really does see and hear all.
I was doing so well, too!

I am depressed because I was not the person I “fronted”
I lived by only the devil’s doing
Suddenly, I found myself wanting to die
I no longer slept, ate, had panic attacks every single day
I just had no will to live
God pulled the rug out from underneath me……now I am dealing with my depression and going to a support group

The moral of this poem:
God always knows what we are up to and will make you realise by any means necessary.
When you still continue to do the devil’s work he lets go.

Bit of poetry--Broken

BROKEN

~I'm going to sing you a little love song~

~Layne Staley; Love, Hate, Love~

in pieces, broken, thwarted, used, useless, obsessed

want to understand why i do what i do

why can't i change

why can i do it?

in pieces and broken

i feel so bad at myself for allowing myself to be used to hurt others

why can i be a good person

i always point fingers at others who i am jealous of

God, please help me become what you want me to become

help me don't let me die in your prayers

HELP ME...... PLEASE!

i call out every now and then when i have done something that is unfitting to humans

tell me why cant i stop being a heinous bitch and just move forward

why am i so obessed with this person

Please......... hear me this time

i promise i will change this time

im in pieces and broken......help me, please God

do you hear me?

are you there?

i guess not

ill just keep on hating this person

for the rest of my life

until the day i bring about my own death

**a bit off the top of my head---poof--just like that. This is writtened for a very special person**