My main squeeze!

Or you could say the man of my dreams......for 12 years and still counting.......

I never thought I would have to write this

Well, the month started out to be wonderful, But around the 15th it came to a halt. First of all, to clarify; I do not have a significant other. So, in going on, I write periodically on FB...usually good things that are happening, quirky things, on occasion I do write about things that are not pleasant. By meaning unpleasant, NO ONE still knows what happened in 2010. The people that I did know are no longer considered friends in my mind. People don't do what they did. Those are not friends.

In getting back to the issue. I send out fun, little sayings in joyful, friendly, and thoughful manners. Most of them are returned. But some are not. The same goes for emails/comments. Before I go any further, I want to say I don't always get around to everyone's comment/emails/statuses. But I do get back to at least 90% of them within 48 hours. I have to ask what type of people am I dealing with? Are people just so self asorbed these days? Is that what society has become?? While I am very hurt and angry at the reaction {meaning no action} I sort of feel sorry for the very same people.

In a couple of posts I have mentioned that I follow Jim. {Twitter and FB} Everyone does. I know he has a celebrity status, but, I don't gush over him. He is intelligent and I enjoy reading his posts as they are colourful as well. Nor, do I think of him as a 'famous person'. Like I have said many times previously, he is a person who has real problems, just like the rest of us. I do send him comments/messages. They are not the 'fan obsessed' type......I am not going to do that, that's insulting to me. Well, on the 15th, everything fell on my head. I woke up and realised I was doing all of the work {i.e I begin everything---comments, comments, and more}. Its like as if a huge rock fell on my head. I had sent him a cute message {or so I thought}--- 'Happy Valentine's Day....be sweet' {something like that}. I didn't see anyting wrong with it. Do you? Well, like I said I don't send anything that looks remotely like a fan gushing. I dont do that! There was no response.

I feel like this: If he feels like I am to much to be dealt with, then he shouldn't have never spoken to me in the first place. Surely, being earmarked as a celeb can't faze your morals. It can't be that far burried in the soul. It's just morals, you know? I never publize myself as a saint, but, more and more I find myself doing good as compared to others. So, I might as well say I am better than most people when it comes to loyality, faith, ethics, and rightousness. Maybe if I use that as a pretext I can actually reign above others in Christianity. I hate to say that--but its true. I know that's why alot of people hate me. Perhaps, he does as well......not hate, but a strong dislike. In any fact, I know what happens next--you rise up, dust off, and continue on doing the good you have always done. {but, while peparing for that next step---its hard not to feel slighted, hurt, and want to retaliate}

The whole aspect makes me feel as if he has no gumption to imagine how another feels. I just know that I have felt betrayed. I say that because I have defended many times when it comes to his work, singing, music....... when everyone else was chewing him up--I was sitting in the defense area saying no. Putting myself out there, and on the line. this is the thanks I deserve. Is it, really?

My next step, I dunno. Usually, when an incident like this occurs I erase that person out of my life. Like my dad used to say, "Everything happens for a reason".
This is something I did not expect. It really does speak volumes about him, though.....and now, I can see the forest for the trees. Perhaps, there is a reason behind my theory of believing that he is not Bono. {on a side note; he as songwriter saved my life when I was 22-Bono}

And time for freshness.....

Aaahhhh.... love pics of Jim smiling ...... and they are pretty current too!! My fave singer....fave EVERYTHING!! And one of him that is just plain sexy......and top pic is my desktop!

A day of gorgeous men {pictures}

I need to write a post, but don't really feel like it--also, need to finish my admin work. But don't want to do that either. I tend to tire quickly when nothing is moving/panning out fast enough. So, here some of my faves!!

Another passing

Sadly, Simple Minds Jim Kerr's mother just passed away --

please read more at his website --

www.simpleminds.com .

Resting........

The dreadful day in history. I hope everyone who lost a loved one is better able to deal with their loss...it is very hard.

I am very sore from rehearsing yesterday. I keep telling myself that teaching & rehearsing aren't the same...but somehow, I think it is!! Tonight is SM's last gig in Paris...wish I was there! Am awaiting news if I get my status or not {you know what that is}. Really need something to spring, pop, or whatever. also, am waiitng for the hot weather to END. I HATE hot weather. Period. It is so disgusting and all. Not much else to report on....need to take new pics...supposed to do some yesterday in rehearsal--but forgot as always. So, I'll catch up and do some new business shots. {Fingers crossed}

***Oh, I lost 15 pounds in two weeks--something I was not looking to do!!

Septemeber is approaching...

Well, it is almost the end of August and a new month awaits. First of all....the pics...well, Mr. Kerr {my original favourite singer and man}. I have 12 files of pictures of him--so he's my favourite!!

I tried to change the colour w/ the copy/paste and no avail!!

Anyways, alot has happened and alot of it is so crappy {due to people--or personas}. Anyways, September is in two days. I have people coming to class, applied for the disability {classes are in case the case is turned down}, met a new guy--who is 9 years younger than myself--and from Argentina. We talk every now and then--but he always just stares at me and it looks like he's looking right thru me.

I am at a new place --been here for the past two weeks and not really liking it. We might go and live in a hotel for a long while. I never -- or we never thought of living like that!! No deposit, furnished, and lights/water is included and wi-fi {if I had a laptop of my own}!!

{and, again the colour is black........ oh, well}

Well..... no more for now....although, I have a story to work on--something I have been living thru for the past 2 weeks. Again, enjoy the pics of Mr. Kerr {or as his fans know him, Jim}!!

Coming back down to reality

Today, sadly was a shock of a passing--Michael Jackson. The last shocking passing that I witnessed was Michael Hutchence's. Not to mention Farrah Fawcett and Ed McMahon. As we look back over stars who have passed......
Kurt Cobain, Layne Staley, JFK, JFK Jr. .....and it all begun with John Lennon.

I was on Twitter a little while ago and Jim was a bit upset by Jackson's passing....and he had to go on stage a perform. I had to do that a couple of times as well---not something I really wanted to do, nevertheless, it was my duty as a professional.

Humour, my week, ballroom dance, new agey, and reflection

Who did you think it was going to be? Me in 1997--I think!

…..if you clicked onto the link--prepare yourself, sit down, don’t drink anything {you’ll see why}, and more I can’t think of right now.

A moment of humour….my dad, well, he was a character. He had this weird name for me. I really don’t know how he came up with it. He would call me Tawisha. But he’d say to everyone--How do you spell that? He’d say {now hold onto what ever you are sitting on--or lean against something} Too Wish Ugh! I am NOT kidding! Serious as cancer!
He was funny…sadly he passed 2000 November 01.

Today, I have to go to the store…I need my caffeine, I also have to do a flyer. This week…we’ll don’t exactly know what it holds. I do have to rehearse again. I also need to take some pics in a couple of costumes. That is going to be fun--out in the sun in stage makeup! Very fun. Not. I might limit myself to two days in the sun--who knows I will probably get a little tan and not trying to. All between that I have lunch date with the “ex”--we did talk about drinking and I need to see for myself to see how he is before I go making assumptions.

Currently listening to Home {Michael Buble} love this song--it is good for a ballroom waltz. Which I can do along with swing, tango, foxtrot, cha cha, rumba, samba….not a pro in ballroom though. I am trained fully in ballet, tap, jazz, pointe {dancing on toe}, lyrical…and some street/hip hop and modern. I can teach/choreograph all of it as well.

Enough of dance talk…
I am an avid fan of astrology {and study as well}---don’t tell me your birthday--I’ll do your chart. LOL. My grandmother started me on this. So, it is her fault.

On another subject----I am doing better w/ Twitter. These fans…..amazing! I think it is okay once in a while to go ga ga over Jim, ask him about the album, tour, ect. But it is annoying after a while. I am sure he is here to promote the upcoming album, but also just to socialise with people. You cannot wear career hat all of the time--your other hats have to be worn as well. This is just my opinion. I just don’t get it. I have seen them ask him and he might get annoyed with them asking him about this gig, that gig, Chile release date. I don’t think they realise he is a person first and foremost. Yes, he’s a celebrity--but he is human!

Well…..sorry for my ranting. If I offend anyone--sorry--just voicing my opinion.

My rehearsal, L&O:CI, and a mild irritation

Well, here I sit as I drink my refreshing glass of Pepsi and recant the day--rain, stretch, rain, choreograph, and guess what?...MORE RAIN. It is still raining! I know by tomorrow morning I will be very sore....3 hours of rehearsing! Oh well, whatever it takes to get these pieces done, right? I think I lost 5 pounds--and my clothes were soaked. Not a pretty sight....
So, I had a nice, hot shower and my body feels so much better {and clean--feeling gritty/dirty is just nasty}.

Tomorrow is the season premiere of Law and Order: Criminal Intent!!! Who Hoo. All day long is a marathon of the show--so no dancing/internet! I have been waiting since Nov 2008 for this to premiere.

Anyways...the dances are coming along pretty well. I think I am going to have to pull one of the dances---it will take another year to complete. The Greatest Gift is so far the most romantic piece yet. You can go to myspace to hear the song playing. Just breath taking.....
Also, I have to delete some of the songs on this playlist and add more.

I have been on Twitter, and these people are relentless......asking Jim about tour dates. Do you think he wants to chat about tour dates? The one thing that irritates me is this---they don't know how to talk to him {some people can}. He is a normal person.....Good Lord! Yes, I used to be ga ga over him--but I grew up and relised he is a person and has a mind. Oh well.... what can you do?
I might write a little later on tonight--not sure though.

PS: a certain person can message me and say thanx. Just kidding! LoL.

Twitter!

The pic of the day--Jim Kerr. Someone I don't really gush over as much!

Well, so I signed up for Twitter the other day--actually, like a couple of days ago.....but never did anything with it. Yesterday......I am reading my emails of a SM group that I have belonged to for about 4 years now...and Jim is on Twitter. So, I go and look at it--read the statement in the blogs on the website--yep! it's accurate.

{between speaking to people here at home--I will never get done w/ this post!}

Meanwhile, {if you have read the previous post--I am waiting for the "man" to set up a date} I set up the Twitter thingy and update, design, and all. I sent him a message {3 times because I could not figure out how this thing work}. BTW--this is really ass backwards approach in replying.

Anywho...I get a private {direct - they call it} from Jim. I am not really surprised at all--because I did speak with him on myspace--just a little while, nothing really big. He had alot of fans on there and some did not really think it was him. Anyways the message I recieved was sweet and kind of odd---he said that he liked my page. I am thinking what page? I put the youtube page link on Twitter and thought he went to that.

So, later on I am listening to my playlist on here and I noticed that the counter has a couple of more views {most are mine thought-ha ha}. So, I go to look and I see a view from the UK--Leeds. I view the info and just smile and know what he was talking about.

So, that was my highlight of the day----I don't get it--most people fall apart when Jim replies to them. He IS a normal person with alot of cash--that's all!