Well, the month started out to be wonderful, But around the 15th it came to a halt. First of all, to clarify; I do not have a significant other. So, in going on, I write periodically on FB...usually good things that are happening, quirky things, on occasion I do write about things that are not pleasant. By meaning unpleasant, NO ONE still knows what happened in 2010. The people that I did know are no longer considered friends in my mind. People don't do what they did. Those are not friends.
In getting back to the issue. I send out fun, little sayings in joyful, friendly, and thoughful manners. Most of them are returned. But some are not. The same goes for emails/comments. Before I go any further, I want to say I don't always get around to everyone's comment/emails/statuses. But I do get back to at least 90% of them within 48 hours. I have to ask what type of people am I dealing with? Are people just so self asorbed these days? Is that what society has become?? While I am very hurt and angry at the reaction {meaning no action} I sort of feel sorry for the very same people.
In a couple of posts I have mentioned that I follow Jim. {Twitter and FB} Everyone does. I know he has a celebrity status, but, I don't gush over him. He is intelligent and I enjoy reading his posts as they are colourful as well. Nor, do I think of him as a 'famous person'. Like I have said many times previously, he is a person who has real problems, just like the rest of us. I do send him comments/messages. They are not the 'fan obsessed' type......I am not going to do that, that's insulting to me. Well, on the 15th, everything fell on my head. I woke up and realised I was doing all of the work {i.e I begin everything---comments, comments, and more}. Its like as if a huge rock fell on my head. I had sent him a cute message {or so I thought}--- 'Happy Valentine's Day....be sweet' {something like that}. I didn't see anyting wrong with it. Do you? Well, like I said I don't send anything that looks remotely like a fan gushing. I dont do that! There was no response.
I feel like this: If he feels like I am to much to be dealt with, then he shouldn't have never spoken to me in the first place. Surely, being earmarked as a celeb can't faze your morals. It can't be that far burried in the soul. It's just morals, you know? I never publize myself as a saint, but, more and more I find myself doing good as compared to others. So, I might as well say I am better than most people when it comes to loyality, faith, ethics, and rightousness. Maybe if I use that as a pretext I can actually reign above others in Christianity. I hate to say that--but its true. I know that's why alot of people hate me. Perhaps, he does as well......not hate, but a strong dislike. In any fact, I know what happens next--you rise up, dust off, and continue on doing the good you have always done. {but, while peparing for that next step---its hard not to feel slighted, hurt, and want to retaliate}
The whole aspect makes me feel as if he has no gumption to imagine how another feels. I just know that I have felt betrayed. I say that because I have defended many times when it comes to his work, singing, music....... when everyone else was chewing him up--I was sitting in the defense area saying no. Putting myself out there, and on the line. this is the thanks I deserve. Is it, really?
My next step, I dunno. Usually, when an incident like this occurs I erase that person out of my life. Like my dad used to say, "Everything happens for a reason".
This is something I did not expect. It really does speak volumes about him, though.....and now, I can see the forest for the trees. Perhaps, there is a reason behind my theory of believing that he is not Bono. {on a side note; he as songwriter saved my life when I was 22-Bono}
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Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Friday, January 21, 2011
When friends shock you Part III
It seems there is a series of these...... I get SO TIRED writing about friends who are losers in reality. It is like they have no moral code of life. But yet celebrities have more morals than average "joes"....and they have money, image, prestige.
In 2010, I witnessed everyone I once knew and considered them friends to and do an about face. Honestly, don't people live by a code of honour anymore?? When will this madness cease?!
Carrying on, a longtime colleague/friend turned out to be a _____________{fill in the blank}. One thing that turns me is that she believed that my pain was not real. Yes! Yet, my current boss, ballroom teacher, chiropractors, mother, colleague {out-of-state} all say positive thoughts. An old business acquaintance even said that her comment was just uncaring. You think?
My question is this: Why pretend to care and be a friend if you have a problem w/ me??? Just move on and say no -- to using your studio for free. I cannot and do not understand it. Well, just like everyone else I hope she loses everything. People who don't support others don't deserve what is given to them.
Well, I guess a code of ethics is not in the books for some. Sad..... I have no friends left where I live. But online---is a different story {most are out of the US}. This is what a "friend" said to me when telling him about the perils of 2010. "There is nothing wrong with you, rather something wrong with them."
In 2010, I witnessed everyone I once knew and considered them friends to and do an about face. Honestly, don't people live by a code of honour anymore?? When will this madness cease?!
Carrying on, a longtime colleague/friend turned out to be a _____________{fill in the blank}. One thing that turns me is that she believed that my pain was not real. Yes! Yet, my current boss, ballroom teacher, chiropractors, mother, colleague {out-of-state} all say positive thoughts. An old business acquaintance even said that her comment was just uncaring. You think?
My question is this: Why pretend to care and be a friend if you have a problem w/ me??? Just move on and say no -- to using your studio for free. I cannot and do not understand it. Well, just like everyone else I hope she loses everything. People who don't support others don't deserve what is given to them.
Well, I guess a code of ethics is not in the books for some. Sad..... I have no friends left where I live. But online---is a different story {most are out of the US}. This is what a "friend" said to me when telling him about the perils of 2010. "There is nothing wrong with you, rather something wrong with them."
Friends are people who offer help when not asked and will be there for you
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Halloween
Well, first of the "official" holiday is here...no real posting just a holiday them hello!! A new blog wil return in November! With lots of exciting news......
Sunday, October 17, 2010
October has arrived and news
A nice start to the weekend!!!Well, a new month has arrived - alot has happened. We did go and live in a hotel and it is so much more positive and all...no "strange" people to be weird {or act for that matter}.
We had a meeting w/ a prospective client for MISA last week and are just awaiting the approval to work {if hired}. Our NY contact set up the meeting--he couldn't go--so, we went instead.
I am also awaiting the outcome of my disability {that will a be a big amount--all of the back pay}. I have heard zero and nothing--I don't know whether I am approved or not. I keep calling the main person in Austin and its always next week, next week..... They have 120 days to discuss the case and guess what day it was when I called? That's right the 120th day. Good Lord!!
Classes have slowed down...now, I have dancers for my Rep Series---a male dancer just emailed me a couple of days ago. Oh yeah, I still get calls/emails for classes and they NEVER SHOW UP! What is with that??
I still am hurting----it hurts to teach/dance after 2 hrs. I guess its because I have inflamantion in my hips-due not having enough $$ to go to the chiropracter for a long time. {Since losing my income last October it is difficult---things are very hard}.
On a more positive note--we might move in with a freind to help her and us finacially. That would be great!
More later!!
Friday, June 11, 2010
Reflections.....
Friday and the weekend is near and I am not feeling the best...what else is new. Oh well, suck it up and move ahead. I only complain if I'm hurting really bad and medicine doesn't work.
I'll recap--sort of--
Plan B arose and off we went! It's not bad, actually. Mom and I are are by ourselves. We have most of our clothing over at a friend's house. He actually has known me since I was 17 and worked for my father. Very loyal to us---because of the ties between my dad and him?? I guess---or just very sincere. His boss told me of some job leads and in the course proceeded to chew me out for not being on my own. I just let him speak. But an odd thing had happened. Our friend just sat there and listened to him and didn't say a word--but he didn't proceed with the chewing out. I never said a thing--I asked for any job leads b/c I didn't want him to lose his job b/c of what I am capable of saying---and he doesn't deserve that.
In the midst of our conversation, he advised me on what to do with certain people who are no longer are part of my life. I went and inquired and did it! Simple. I had made a decision on May 11th of this year to cease contact with certain people... but no one knew except a few private people.
He {our friend} just now found out about our moving here and there---and was the first person who was genuine in their sorrow {don't know what else to call it}. Perhaps, he is a man and there's no competition. Like when my father passed away everyone said their condolences once---but never again did anyone ask how I or my Mom was. {my ex, who I talk to, was a complete a** --- but even he derseved a 2nd chance from me. He lost alot--and has learned}.
But, anyways......you can't change people--only wish them well on their journey's.
So...... if we don't talk, its because I have moved and we nothing in common; why continue living a fake friendship.
***I am very grateful to our friend. If I need clothes for an interview I have to get them from him---he basically has everything of mine {except me} Ha Ha!!
I'll recap--sort of--
Plan B arose and off we went! It's not bad, actually. Mom and I are are by ourselves. We have most of our clothing over at a friend's house. He actually has known me since I was 17 and worked for my father. Very loyal to us---because of the ties between my dad and him?? I guess---or just very sincere. His boss told me of some job leads and in the course proceeded to chew me out for not being on my own. I just let him speak. But an odd thing had happened. Our friend just sat there and listened to him and didn't say a word--but he didn't proceed with the chewing out. I never said a thing--I asked for any job leads b/c I didn't want him to lose his job b/c of what I am capable of saying---and he doesn't deserve that.
In the midst of our conversation, he advised me on what to do with certain people who are no longer are part of my life. I went and inquired and did it! Simple. I had made a decision on May 11th of this year to cease contact with certain people... but no one knew except a few private people.
He {our friend} just now found out about our moving here and there---and was the first person who was genuine in their sorrow {don't know what else to call it}. Perhaps, he is a man and there's no competition. Like when my father passed away everyone said their condolences once---but never again did anyone ask how I or my Mom was. {my ex, who I talk to, was a complete a** --- but even he derseved a 2nd chance from me. He lost alot--and has learned}.
But, anyways......you can't change people--only wish them well on their journey's.
So...... if we don't talk, its because I have moved and we nothing in common; why continue living a fake friendship.
***I am very grateful to our friend. If I need clothes for an interview I have to get them from him---he basically has everything of mine {except me} Ha Ha!!
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
A day was had!
I am still corresonding with my ex. He is actually coming in very handy and all. I am asking his adcive on a pest that we are encountering---sort of like harrassment. Didn't I cover this in tidbits last year??!! Yesterday, saw an old friend {a man} and sought out advice on a pest and very simple outcome! I still see the interst in me like I did 4 years ago.....lovely.
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
What happens to people when you move on
What a peculiar title? You think??!! Well, I have not written in a month...well, just to pen a short note, I moved from Houston to Katy {Cinco Ranch}and now into our own place---ALL BY OURSELVES!!
I don't really want to go into what has happen in the past month--but its a tale of people showing their true colours --colours that you did not know. But, I am not going to re-hash...because I don't want to go over the events {actually, well, since I am typing then writing it out--again}. I muchather tell it to you personally--which I already did!!
In other news, Bret Micheals was rushed to the hospital with suffering a brain hemmoraige {oops spelling}--he's better now and will make a full recovery. Thank goodness......
The beau and the ex--might as well kick both to the curb..... They don't care enough about me to call. {matter of fact no one calls} I am trying to suck it up and understand in my mind that if you don't have the kindness in your heart to say hello or do something more than an email--well, I don't need you. You CONTACTED ME! Please someone explain this to me. Am I just dunb and don't get it? So, in my efforts to understand people--I have decided to erase everyone out of my life..well, except for the people who have done thier duty as friends to help out.
So, here I am in a new place, a new home, and new tow....Katy, Texas. Sort of feels like home.
So, that's the update folks! And no pics either {sad face}.
I don't really want to go into what has happen in the past month--but its a tale of people showing their true colours --colours that you did not know. But, I am not going to re-hash...because I don't want to go over the events {actually, well, since I am typing then writing it out--again}. I muchather tell it to you personally--which I already did!!
In other news, Bret Micheals was rushed to the hospital with suffering a brain hemmoraige {oops spelling}--he's better now and will make a full recovery. Thank goodness......
The beau and the ex--might as well kick both to the curb..... They don't care enough about me to call. {matter of fact no one calls} I am trying to suck it up and understand in my mind that if you don't have the kindness in your heart to say hello or do something more than an email--well, I don't need you. You CONTACTED ME! Please someone explain this to me. Am I just dunb and don't get it? So, in my efforts to understand people--I have decided to erase everyone out of my life..well, except for the people who have done thier duty as friends to help out.
So, here I am in a new place, a new home, and new tow....Katy, Texas. Sort of feels like home.
So, that's the update folks! And no pics either {sad face}.
Goodbye losers!!!
**sort of like from Schindler's List...'goodbye jews'....
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Again what are friends?
I know I have written many times on the topic, friends. Well, I guess it is about time to delete another couple of them. Sure, I get wall posts {FB} and tweets..... but no one picks up the freakin' phone anymore. It is so stupid--this online invention--it has made people dumber {if you can believe that--than 10 years ago}. Why is it that no one call pick up the phone to call me???? So, I still have no answers; I guess I will have to take a drastic approach----
and delete those who do not speak with me.
**in 2010, I have encountered real friends. people who used to for my dad when he was alive.... they are doing for me what you "my so-call friends" would not ever do**
and delete those who do not speak with me.
**in 2010, I have encountered real friends. people who used to for my dad when he was alive.... they are doing for me what you "my so-call friends" would not ever do**
Saturday, December 26, 2009
End of the year {one person remains & another vanished}
What a crappy year it has been---only one thing that was new and is still in my life. The ex-Army guy---well, I guess he has fell off the face of the planet. I have not heard from him in 46 days {that's two months and 6 days}. But, on the other hand my ex has spoken to me since the mid of January of this year. Everyone says watch out--re: an ex and they root for the Army man--but I say who can get to the plate first. I have heard two negative comments about him from different sources {and one is the ex}. With the military one -- it's like I have discovered a "new person" and the ex--well, we know each other.
So.....a little over two months and not one email/IM from him. I don't care anymore. Because, if he wanted to be with me in some sense---46 days would not went by. So...I really don't care to hear from him again. I guess he made my mind and his up at the same time. Sometimes, I really want to sit down and compose an email to him stating at how he's totally ignored me. But then, the common sense kicks in and I think---he is going to get the same treatment as I got from him----ignored. In all honesty, I think he's done this on purpose hoping I will blame him and he can email {seriously!!} me and accuse me of 90 million things that I don't do right {according to him}.
The ex......well, the reason why he's an ex is way too personal + I see him more of a saint now. Perhaps, that is why contacted me in the first place. He has an agenda {always has} but it takes so long to come out you actually forget about the fact you are being 'baited".
Why can't people live honestly?
I am not going to do a recap---really no need to....... you know what happened I don't need to recant!
What is new is that I am sick. The weather turned to the mid 70's and boom.....sick - yes I am. I can eat right, but if the weather changes it doesn't matter. I had to change my medicine and took the first dosage and was wired--LITERALLY! Talking non-stop.
Christmas was alright---I'm not really into the actual day-nor, am I family orientated. I really like the before hand things. Now, just waiting for the new year----it has to be better. There's a Lunar Eclipse on December 31st....and for me its in my 5th house {love, creativity, and pleasure}. Now, with no beau--how in the hell is a new beginning/ending going to take place.
SIDENOTE: if you want to know what the eclipse touches in your life--look up Astrology Zone {b/c I don't work for free}.
Back to him {!} - I know you can feel these things happening a month earlier or later or around the actual day. Looking back I see I had a Solar in mid July {that's when the crap he caused begun} and someone came along temporarily to take my mind off of him. It was sort of a new start--just kind of weird though. Now this Friday, I have the same house as a lunar--an ending...honestly..... trying be objective as an astrologer, I think it already happen. I say that b/c an eclipse "eclipses" person out of your life. So, on this eclipse I have no idea what will happen---I do know that the ex emailed me twice on Christmas Day---let's me say, that's a landmark!
Well, I think I have talked long enough.......back to the apartment to do some more research. And another eclipse is on January 15th {in my house of friends----b/c in July I lost a couple of those}.
2009 was a time of learning who to trust and who not trust....and what a whopper of a year it has been for me {and them as well}
So.....a little over two months and not one email/IM from him. I don't care anymore. Because, if he wanted to be with me in some sense---46 days would not went by. So...I really don't care to hear from him again. I guess he made my mind and his up at the same time. Sometimes, I really want to sit down and compose an email to him stating at how he's totally ignored me. But then, the common sense kicks in and I think---he is going to get the same treatment as I got from him----ignored. In all honesty, I think he's done this on purpose hoping I will blame him and he can email {seriously!!} me and accuse me of 90 million things that I don't do right {according to him}.
The ex......well, the reason why he's an ex is way too personal + I see him more of a saint now. Perhaps, that is why contacted me in the first place. He has an agenda {always has} but it takes so long to come out you actually forget about the fact you are being 'baited".
Why can't people live honestly?
I am not going to do a recap---really no need to....... you know what happened I don't need to recant!
What is new is that I am sick. The weather turned to the mid 70's and boom.....sick - yes I am. I can eat right, but if the weather changes it doesn't matter. I had to change my medicine and took the first dosage and was wired--LITERALLY! Talking non-stop.
Christmas was alright---I'm not really into the actual day-nor, am I family orientated. I really like the before hand things. Now, just waiting for the new year----it has to be better. There's a Lunar Eclipse on December 31st....and for me its in my 5th house {love, creativity, and pleasure}. Now, with no beau--how in the hell is a new beginning/ending going to take place.
SIDENOTE: if you want to know what the eclipse touches in your life--look up Astrology Zone {b/c I don't work for free}.
Back to him {!} - I know you can feel these things happening a month earlier or later or around the actual day. Looking back I see I had a Solar in mid July {that's when the crap he caused begun} and someone came along temporarily to take my mind off of him. It was sort of a new start--just kind of weird though. Now this Friday, I have the same house as a lunar--an ending...honestly..... trying be objective as an astrologer, I think it already happen. I say that b/c an eclipse "eclipses" person out of your life. So, on this eclipse I have no idea what will happen---I do know that the ex emailed me twice on Christmas Day---let's me say, that's a landmark!
Well, I think I have talked long enough.......back to the apartment to do some more research. And another eclipse is on January 15th {in my house of friends----b/c in July I lost a couple of those}.
2009 was a time of learning who to trust and who not trust....and what a whopper of a year it has been for me {and them as well}
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Friendship?
In 2007, I had to delete over half of my friends on myspace {personal acc't}. Why? Well, people have too much to do in today's time to think about how you are, sending wishes to someone, and in general just to see how you are. Well, as of December 02, 2009, it has occurred yet again. I have given out warnings such as no emails, IM's, comments equal being deleted. Does a person understand what that means from me? It means I will not speak to you for whatever reason.
It is not being selfish--but putting up a boundary---a collegue of mine once said, "If the person is not responding to you usually means they are sending out a clear signal". Yes, while it may intially hurt--I get over it and begin to get very angry. I know we are in the computer age---but humans are behind those computers. They don't post on their own!
In going back to the original sentence---yes, I will be doing away with friends who do not check to see how I am doing. I send out emails, comments, ectera.......well, no more. Why should I waste my energy on people who don't take time out to think about others.
So, my personal myspace---deleted people.....
Twitter----deleted people
Facebook {don't know the addy}----they are all new--but time will tell!
personal email----next task and is #1
address book---you guessed it and #2
I am tired of only one person asking anything about me when I know over 75 people...that's just sad and really pathetic. That's my new year's resolution----EARLY!
If people are mad, offended, and want to start drama----well go ahead......I won't be around to hear it. Stress free life----that's what I live by.
Oh, the boyfriend/beau......yes, he is one of these people, and will get the same treatment as I have received from him. No contact and ignored!!
It is not being selfish--but putting up a boundary---a collegue of mine once said, "If the person is not responding to you usually means they are sending out a clear signal". Yes, while it may intially hurt--I get over it and begin to get very angry. I know we are in the computer age---but humans are behind those computers. They don't post on their own!
In going back to the original sentence---yes, I will be doing away with friends who do not check to see how I am doing. I send out emails, comments, ectera.......well, no more. Why should I waste my energy on people who don't take time out to think about others.
So, my personal myspace---deleted people.....
Twitter----deleted people
Facebook {don't know the addy}----they are all new--but time will tell!
personal email----next task and is #1
address book---you guessed it and #2
I am tired of only one person asking anything about me when I know over 75 people...that's just sad and really pathetic. That's my new year's resolution----EARLY!
If people are mad, offended, and want to start drama----well go ahead......I won't be around to hear it. Stress free life----that's what I live by.
Oh, the boyfriend/beau......yes, he is one of these people, and will get the same treatment as I have received from him. No contact and ignored!!
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Close to the end of the year blog!
Well....it has been 10 days since the last post. Some has happened--some has not. The biggest worry is still present--but not as bad. This worry has been present ever since October. So, with the holidays approaching...its holiday time.
The news that I am supposed to post is this: an old employee of my dad's contacted us and after talking has decided to do some networking for us. In our biz {security} a man is better than a woman. We are also doing some advertising. He said in passing about apartments that offer live on courtesy officers in lieu of monthly rent. So, I slept on it and came to a realization. Why not pitch an idea to apartment communities about live on officers in lieu of rent?? So, we did. It is weird mixing business with looking at apartments. Very foreign!! We visited 2 complexes today and had a good response at one of them. They just opened and are looking to expand out into a 2nd officer. So, we have to bring out an intro letter and speak with the manager Monday.This will help tremendously if we can get a live on in terms of $$$.Mom does most of the talking as I am still learning about how to approach clients. My deal is the office....admin work!
In other news.....I just concluded the last performance of 2009 and for the retirement home. This week I am going to look at some more centers {and bring the portfolio}. I am also working with a young lady in NY who is interested in doing the centers with me.
Really, nothing else to "report"---I am sick of this place and really want to get out of here. It has not been a pleasant place....makes me wish I would have stayed at the first place in Kingwood!!
****Oh, of course, my so called friends have not called once this year to see how I am doing or my mom. They will have a BIG change coming in 2010....a big one!
The news that I am supposed to post is this: an old employee of my dad's contacted us and after talking has decided to do some networking for us. In our biz {security} a man is better than a woman. We are also doing some advertising. He said in passing about apartments that offer live on courtesy officers in lieu of monthly rent. So, I slept on it and came to a realization. Why not pitch an idea to apartment communities about live on officers in lieu of rent?? So, we did. It is weird mixing business with looking at apartments. Very foreign!! We visited 2 complexes today and had a good response at one of them. They just opened and are looking to expand out into a 2nd officer. So, we have to bring out an intro letter and speak with the manager Monday.This will help tremendously if we can get a live on in terms of $$$.Mom does most of the talking as I am still learning about how to approach clients. My deal is the office....admin work!
In other news.....I just concluded the last performance of 2009 and for the retirement home. This week I am going to look at some more centers {and bring the portfolio}. I am also working with a young lady in NY who is interested in doing the centers with me.
Really, nothing else to "report"---I am sick of this place and really want to get out of here. It has not been a pleasant place....makes me wish I would have stayed at the first place in Kingwood!!
****Oh, of course, my so called friends have not called once this year to see how I am doing or my mom. They will have a BIG change coming in 2010....a big one!
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Last week's recap
Okay......alot has happened!! I been having to update for about a week...and haven't really had the chance. So, here's goes the recap.......
~finally, mom got the offer to drive {after a couple of snags--but all is well now!!}
~met one of the KW people in person--he was nice and gave us a "present" and we had pizza that night and Chinese food the next
~we both met the man who mom is driving for---a medical condition......well, its true. Long story short, he has a boot and is on crutches -- meaning cannot drive. And he's a photographer!
~I got a job offer from the pictures guy. I went to the ladies room and he asked if anyone was looking for a job----talk about a job falling into my lap LITERALLY!!!! So, I did accept the offer and begin this coming Tuesday.
~put an ap in at Bath and Body Works {b/c I want to!!!!}
Today we get to take the photo guy to a photo shoot---very different and new.
So, I have to get out my business clothes and do a little shopping for a couple of new biz outfits + dress shoes. I am also going to see This is It on Saturday--a day that is our own {well, besides Monday}. Also, will have to buy lunch and of course groceries.
And.....today is the 9th annivesary of my father's passing.
~finally, mom got the offer to drive {after a couple of snags--but all is well now!!}
~met one of the KW people in person--he was nice and gave us a "present" and we had pizza that night and Chinese food the next
~we both met the man who mom is driving for---a medical condition......well, its true. Long story short, he has a boot and is on crutches -- meaning cannot drive. And he's a photographer!
~I got a job offer from the pictures guy. I went to the ladies room and he asked if anyone was looking for a job----talk about a job falling into my lap LITERALLY!!!! So, I did accept the offer and begin this coming Tuesday.
~put an ap in at Bath and Body Works {b/c I want to!!!!}
Today we get to take the photo guy to a photo shoot---very different and new.
So, I have to get out my business clothes and do a little shopping for a couple of new biz outfits + dress shoes. I am also going to see This is It on Saturday--a day that is our own {well, besides Monday}. Also, will have to buy lunch and of course groceries.
And.....today is the 9th annivesary of my father's passing.
{oh......I guess I have a new or secondary career}
Monday, June 29, 2009
The end of June is tomorrow, and what have I done?
Via Twitter......am not happy at the moment. I leave others comments and no replies - it is kind of that way with emails as well. I am talking old people.... say more than a week old! How Wude!
Well, enough of ranting about the rudeness......can't change people--but, maybe I should get off Twitter {!} There's a thought!
Anywho, my show is in 6 days and I am writing this! Very professional aren't I? The beg of July is going to be very busy, busy, and more busy. Well, I wanted this and now, I have to prepare. That is always fun. I get into pre-performance mode and I am told I am a bitch to be around. That's what I am told. I guess it is partly true--I am a perfectionist!!! Go figure!
In a day and a half, I have to get my soup for the chicken and rice that I forgot to get but got everything else! Really brilliant, isn't it??
I have to get to the store, make my cd for the show, do the programs, get a couple of staging things {tape}, make the cd for the house music, and this is not including the pics and performance video.
I was watching movies last Friday night and I caught a movie that I haven't seen in 12 years-The Glimmer Man, with Steven Seagal and Keenan Ivory Wayons. I had not seen that in a long time!Still was a goood relaxing evening. I was his bio {Seagal} and it is interesting to say the least! I have seen every one of his movies {very interesting action star}.
Well, enough of ranting about the rudeness......can't change people--but, maybe I should get off Twitter {!} There's a thought!
Anywho, my show is in 6 days and I am writing this! Very professional aren't I? The beg of July is going to be very busy, busy, and more busy. Well, I wanted this and now, I have to prepare. That is always fun. I get into pre-performance mode and I am told I am a bitch to be around. That's what I am told. I guess it is partly true--I am a perfectionist!!! Go figure!
In a day and a half, I have to get my soup for the chicken and rice that I forgot to get but got everything else! Really brilliant, isn't it??
I have to get to the store, make my cd for the show, do the programs, get a couple of staging things {tape}, make the cd for the house music, and this is not including the pics and performance video.
I was watching movies last Friday night and I caught a movie that I haven't seen in 12 years-The Glimmer Man, with Steven Seagal and Keenan Ivory Wayons. I had not seen that in a long time!Still was a goood relaxing evening. I was his bio {Seagal} and it is interesting to say the least! I have seen every one of his movies {very interesting action star}.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Sunday's outing, twits, friend's problem.....
I was not going to write a blog since I already wrote one early this morning. But, a friend of mine is having issues with her soon to be ex-husband. Today, I did buy a stereo for the classes that I will be teaching ... and ate at Casa Ole. Missed the movie because the mall closed early and well....
I will not be writing anything related to Tidbits this week. {yes, that's right CLS and SA---because I know it has to be both of you who read this blog, freelance, and RDC's. Everytime someone reads this blog or the others--it records your info...besides the same; two addy's show up alot compared to overseas and mine}. If you get mad....deal with it and get over it--besides, I don't have the time for it right now!!**
Now.....the important thing. My friend is being stalked online by her ex {what a jackass} and he made the mistake of following me. {he will hear an earful!} As anyone will do when you are told hateful remarks - you vent. It is natural...
human. So, she has been writing in her online diary her feelings {sort of a healing process} and this asshole reads what she is writing {I guess}....then creates an acc't on Twitter-because she is on Twitter along with a million other SM fans. Duh?! Can you say Loser?? {Yes, I am wound up and ready to knock people on their asses....f*cking losers!!} So, this idiot follows her friends! Now, my guess is that it is so he can "talk" to them. Oh, come on a talk to me. I'll talk with you and it won't be pleasant!!
Plus, I do think Jim will understand about your ex--he has two of his own {I am sure they are more mature}. So, friend, don't worry about putting the warnings out--if they don't understand--block them!
**You still read EVERYTHING I say-but yet, we don't have any contact, but you are interested in what I am writing. I bet reading about/looking at Robert Plant got old. Not to mention Roger Taylor. The entry was written to plug my upcoming writing {and secondly, to see how quickly you would read and re-read}. Well, I don't give a damn if you read or not!
You resigned
you still read what your "loser" director writes
.....oh, well you can't dance forever.
Well, closing now......this loser needs to get working on more "crappy" choreography!
I will not be writing anything related to Tidbits this week. {yes, that's right CLS and SA---because I know it has to be both of you who read this blog, freelance, and RDC's. Everytime someone reads this blog or the others--it records your info...besides the same; two addy's show up alot compared to overseas and mine}. If you get mad....deal with it and get over it--besides, I don't have the time for it right now!!**
Now.....the important thing. My friend is being stalked online by her ex {what a jackass} and he made the mistake of following me. {he will hear an earful!} As anyone will do when you are told hateful remarks - you vent. It is natural...
human. So, she has been writing in her online diary her feelings {sort of a healing process} and this asshole reads what she is writing {I guess}....then creates an acc't on Twitter-because she is on Twitter along with a million other SM fans. Duh?! Can you say Loser?? {Yes, I am wound up and ready to knock people on their asses....f*cking losers!!} So, this idiot follows her friends! Now, my guess is that it is so he can "talk" to them. Oh, come on a talk to me. I'll talk with you and it won't be pleasant!!
Plus, I do think Jim will understand about your ex--he has two of his own {I am sure they are more mature}. So, friend, don't worry about putting the warnings out--if they don't understand--block them!
**You still read EVERYTHING I say-but yet, we don't have any contact, but you are interested in what I am writing. I bet reading about/looking at Robert Plant got old. Not to mention Roger Taylor. The entry was written to plug my upcoming writing {and secondly, to see how quickly you would read and re-read}. Well, I don't give a damn if you read or not!
You resigned
you still read what your "loser" director writes
.....oh, well you can't dance forever.
Well, closing now......this loser needs to get working on more "crappy" choreography!
Saturday, May 30, 2009
A twisted way of life-Poetry
Your life was filled sadness and voices in which others did not hear.
You felt burdened by their words to make you go and do such unthinkable things.
No one could understand how much pain you must had been in.
You felt burdened by their words to make you go and do such unthinkable things.
No one could understand how much pain you must had been in.
Constantly battling with the inner demons with these “people” that no one heard. Medication is a thought to cure a terrible disease.
Unfortunately, that was not the case with you.
You must had been on a high when you took your own life and felt you were invincible and on top of the world.
Now, you are in a better place and free of those demons and am finally living your life as a normal human being.
Unfortunately, that was not the case with you.
You must had been on a high when you took your own life and felt you were invincible and on top of the world.
Now, you are in a better place and free of those demons and am finally living your life as a normal human being.
~In memory of Amy Powell~
For her mother and all of the people who knew her
Written for my Mother’s friend, whose daughter committed suicide in 2007. This young woman is a someone I knew as a child. I had not seen here in over a decade and when I heard the news….I wrote this off of the top of my head.
"It is sad when people who are mentally unbalanced commit suicide and others who are well, trash and speak ill of others."
Thursday, May 21, 2009
When friends shock you Part II
Well, here again....
I am still very upset over this incident that I witnessed...disappointed, shocked, hurt, and many more. I don't understand people!! They show you one face and everyone else another. They might as well be a poker player--they would never lose.
This "friend" had known my dad since 1991, worked for him, and after quitting still remained in contact. He was a my dad's funeral and was a pallbearer. He even pulled us aside and warned us against of who not to trust in the business. Over the years we have remained in contact with him--he even helped us money-wise by selling off some gun eqiupment to bring in additional money, while waiting on the ATF deal to fianlize. So, I don't understand it--or what his problem is. Last Friday, we saw him and he acted as if everything was just the same nothing new or changed. My mom was browsing on the internet and came across his name on a site and he had mentioned that his martial status has changed. His wife had left him. But he did not tell us that. The next morning I found a profile for him on myspace and decided to write him a note--just offering support.
It is now Thursday, and he has read the message...but not answered me. Very rude, selfish, and totally inconsiderate.
A part of me just wants to tell him that he made this choice to lie to me and you have lost yourself a friend. While another part of me--wants to rise above this arrogance and ignore the situation and not say a thing to him--let him find how hard life can really be with no "real" support.
I am very mad, hurt, and angry still. Its makes you think there was no real relationship, but lies. Nothing but lies. I have lost all respect for him, don't think of him as I used to--I used to look up. I used to and considered him a sound person for who I could go to for advice.
So, now...... another person I have the displeasure of removing from my life. My mom, that's a hard one as she doesn't really seem affected by it--and probably would talk to him.
Should I write a note explaining my decision?? Or just let him wallow in his high and mightyness??
I am still very upset over this incident that I witnessed...disappointed, shocked, hurt, and many more. I don't understand people!! They show you one face and everyone else another. They might as well be a poker player--they would never lose.
This "friend" had known my dad since 1991, worked for him, and after quitting still remained in contact. He was a my dad's funeral and was a pallbearer. He even pulled us aside and warned us against of who not to trust in the business. Over the years we have remained in contact with him--he even helped us money-wise by selling off some gun eqiupment to bring in additional money, while waiting on the ATF deal to fianlize. So, I don't understand it--or what his problem is. Last Friday, we saw him and he acted as if everything was just the same nothing new or changed. My mom was browsing on the internet and came across his name on a site and he had mentioned that his martial status has changed. His wife had left him. But he did not tell us that. The next morning I found a profile for him on myspace and decided to write him a note--just offering support.
It is now Thursday, and he has read the message...but not answered me. Very rude, selfish, and totally inconsiderate.
A part of me just wants to tell him that he made this choice to lie to me and you have lost yourself a friend. While another part of me--wants to rise above this arrogance and ignore the situation and not say a thing to him--let him find how hard life can really be with no "real" support.
I am very mad, hurt, and angry still. Its makes you think there was no real relationship, but lies. Nothing but lies. I have lost all respect for him, don't think of him as I used to--I used to look up. I used to and considered him a sound person for who I could go to for advice.
So, now...... another person I have the displeasure of removing from my life. My mom, that's a hard one as she doesn't really seem affected by it--and probably would talk to him.
Should I write a note explaining my decision?? Or just let him wallow in his high and mightyness??
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