Tidings....

Well, here I am writing {b/c I have done all of my work}! I am sort of vacationing - but, stil inserting work where I am at. I am in Conroe...will be going back to Houston in the beginning of June.

It has been a long time since I wrote.....alot of things have happen and alot of newness hasn't. I have discovered that two guys are interested in me.... Again! one is a Leo and the other is a Capicorn {I think}. we'll see what transpires {if anything - my luck w/ the opposite sex is not positive}.

Meanwhile, my mp3 player has went on the blitz. It is in the shop hopefully getting repaired. My laptop's hard drive got fried - so no more computer. At least I have all of my computer flies and my music can be pulled from the mp3 player!

Not much else to report......

The beau...... now gone {I hope for good}

I have not written alot in the past couple of months or the past year to boot. Tuesday, I got an email from the beau. I have not heard from him since May of 2010. I decided not to keep in contact since I was going thru bad situations and a boyfriend/love interest was the least thing from my mind. So, I gave him a chance and his reply was just the axe to say goodbye.
I realised that he was verbally abusive...blaming me for things that I had no idea about. Everything I did was not to his satisfaction. I was involved with someone when I was 22 and he did the same thing........so, I stood up and said adios {MF}!
Meanwhile, I am interested in a collegue of mine....what do you do??

The first real post of 2011

The last pic---I just love....... love Liam Neeson.
I have spent most of the day working--doing admin work. Preparing for an audition, RDC II auditions, my rehearsal, and loads of computer work. It seems to never end!!! On other news, I begun taking ballroom lessons again {for the umpteenth time}. But, I think I have an interest in my teacher and visa versa. That's all that I am saying. I'll see if this has any future or not. Hopefully, the former.
I have started teaching hip hop again. It's only one genre of dance--hopefully, it will lead to other genres {smile}.
The ex--well, he's just that. I am so tired of his meaningless emails and non-exsistant thoughts. A new year--a new interest--well, I can dream!!

A day was had!

I am still corresonding with my ex. He is actually coming in very handy and all. I am asking his adcive on a pest that we are encountering---sort of like harrassment. Didn't I cover this in tidbits last year??!! Yesterday, saw an old friend {a man} and sought out advice on a pest and very simple outcome! I still see the interst in me like I did 4 years ago.....lovely.

Beau, an ex.....what do I call him?

Well, as you have figured out, I have not spoken to the beau in 2 months... I don't care anymore. I did as much as I could being in a different state and all.

As for the ex - well, I might as well move him to the beau status. I don't have a laptop anymore {it was stolen} so, I have IM on my phone and email. I have been IMing him this month and responses {like thats anything new w/ him-he's a teckie} and we do email as well. Well, I have two gift cards and I asked him if wanted to do Red Lobster or movies. I also IM'ed him and told him that I had a dream about him {is true}. We were texting and I was waiting for him {in the dream}. He says this to me 'wonder what kind of dream uuummm" and a devil smiley! In the email re: gift cards he tells me, uuumm, wonder what kind of dream'!! Its not like I didn't tell him what it was about....good grief!
So, I spent part of the day responding to his emails and IM's -- that was fun. Then I had to do some work.

Well, that's my news for the day--better than venting about the folks in Loserville! I might actually have a date soon. What's that like? {oh, yea..its when you get dressed up a bit and the opposite sex takes you somewhere! Been awhile!} Ha Ha!!

What happens to people when you move on

What a peculiar title? You think??!! Well, I have not written in a month...well, just to pen a short note, I moved from Houston to Katy {Cinco Ranch}and now into our own place---ALL BY OURSELVES!!

I don't really want to go into what has happen in the past month--but its a tale of people showing their true colours --colours that you did not know. But, I am not going to re-hash...because I don't want to go over the events {actually, well, since I am typing then writing it out--again}. I muchather tell it to you personally--which I already did!!

In other news, Bret Micheals was rushed to the hospital with suffering a brain hemmoraige {oops spelling}--he's better now and will make a full recovery. Thank goodness......

The beau and the ex--might as well kick both to the curb..... They don't care enough about me to call. {matter of fact no one calls} I am trying to suck it up and understand in my mind that if you don't have the kindness in your heart to say hello or do something more than an email--well, I don't need you. You CONTACTED ME! Please someone explain this to me. Am I just dunb and don't get it? So, in my efforts to understand people--I have decided to erase everyone out of my life..well, except for the people who have done thier duty as friends to help out.

So, here I am in a new place, a new home, and new tow....Katy, Texas. Sort of feels like home.

So, that's the update folks! And no pics either {sad face}.

Goodbye losers!!!

**sort of like from Schindler's List...'goodbye jews'....

March is upon me

One of my favourites....

A new one ...love the shirt!

Well beau has almost ceased communcation {again}. Like that is a shock. I don't understand him. He seems like he wants something serious--but at the same time dis intersted all together. what are you go to do?? Move on. Plain and simple.
I made a slide show of Dr. Taylor yesterday and posted somewhere online!! It plays "girls on Film"--I played with the slide and added in text - a guy on film {smile}. I was reading the other day on FB, and someone had left him {Roger} a comment.... 'hey mr. dj' ..... I couldn't be that creative!
Still here in the country, and bored out of my mind!! We are trying hard as he** to find a place of our own -- to be self suffient and independent.
Not much else to report here. I have to do some computer work this week and all--but am not feeling the push yet. I feel like doing something work related--but don't know what!
Oh!!! I coloured my hair just an hour ago--waiitng ofr it to dry!!!

Beau Part II

We talk and chat almost all of the time. Very sweet.... and he writes some of the most beautiful phrases--makes you think he's in love with someone??!!

Beau

I have emailed my beau and he responded and he is so sweet and caring {smiling}---who knew -- only time does really tell. I do care for him and all and I now know that he does too. Perfect!
{note--this is not my ex}

Love month

I love February...... its Valentine's day and my bday!
I am speaking with the ex--2 emails in one week--pretty long too! Not much else to report. I have been following Nikki {Sixx} as well....he's beginning a new radio show in between Motley Crue's shows. Still here in the country and all---we are having 2 people looking for a houise --for a way out of here & and to be self suffient!! Oops spelling.......

End of the year {one person remains & another vanished}

What a crappy year it has been---only one thing that was new and is still in my life. The ex-Army guy---well, I guess he has fell off the face of the planet. I have not heard from him in 46 days {that's two months and 6 days}. But, on the other hand my ex has spoken to me since the mid of January of this year. Everyone says watch out--re: an ex and they root for the Army man--but I say who can get to the plate first. I have heard two negative comments about him from different sources {and one is the ex}. With the military one -- it's like I have discovered a "new person" and the ex--well, we know each other.
So.....a little over two months and not one email/IM from him. I don't care anymore. Because, if he wanted to be with me in some sense---46 days would not went by. So...I really don't care to hear from him again. I guess he made my mind and his up at the same time. Sometimes, I really want to sit down and compose an email to him stating at how he's totally ignored me. But then, the common sense kicks in and I think---he is going to get the same treatment as I got from him----ignored. In all honesty, I think he's done this on purpose hoping I will blame him and he can email {seriously!!} me and accuse me of 90 million things that I don't do right {according to him}.
The ex......well, the reason why he's an ex is way too personal + I see him more of a saint now. Perhaps, that is why contacted me in the first place. He has an agenda {always has} but it takes so long to come out you actually forget about the fact you are being 'baited".
Why can't people live honestly?

I am not going to do a recap---really no need to....... you know what happened I don't need to recant!

What is new is that I am sick. The weather turned to the mid 70's and boom.....sick - yes I am. I can eat right, but if the weather changes it doesn't matter. I had to change my medicine and took the first dosage and was wired--LITERALLY! Talking non-stop.

Christmas was alright---I'm not really into the actual day-nor, am I family orientated. I really like the before hand things. Now, just waiting for the new year----it has to be better. There's a Lunar Eclipse on December 31st....and for me its in my 5th house {love, creativity, and pleasure}. Now, with no beau--how in the hell is a new beginning/ending going to take place.
SIDENOTE: if you want to know what the eclipse touches in your life--look up Astrology Zone {b/c I don't work for free}.
Back to him {!} - I know you can feel these things happening a month earlier or later or around the actual day. Looking back I see I had a Solar in mid July {that's when the crap he caused begun} and someone came along temporarily to take my mind off of him. It was sort of a new start--just kind of weird though. Now this Friday, I have the same house as a lunar--an ending...honestly..... trying be objective as an astrologer, I think it already happen. I say that b/c an eclipse "eclipses" person out of your life. So, on this eclipse I have no idea what will happen---I do know that the ex emailed me twice on Christmas Day---let's me say, that's a landmark!

Well, I think I have talked long enough.......back to the apartment to do some more research. And another eclipse is on January 15th {in my house of friends----b/c in July I lost a couple of those}.
2009 was a time of learning who to trust and who not trust....and what a whopper of a year it has been for me {and them as well}

Friendship?

In 2007, I had to delete over half of my friends on myspace {personal acc't}. Why? Well, people have too much to do in today's time to think about how you are, sending wishes to someone, and in general just to see how you are. Well, as of December 02, 2009, it has occurred yet again. I have given out warnings such as no emails, IM's, comments equal being deleted. Does a person understand what that means from me? It means I will not speak to you for whatever reason.

It is not being selfish--but putting up a boundary---a collegue of mine once said, "If the person is not responding to you usually means they are sending out a clear signal". Yes, while it may intially hurt--I get over it and begin to get very angry. I know we are in the computer age---but humans are behind those computers. They don't post on their own!

In going back to the original sentence---yes, I will be doing away with friends who do not check to see how I am doing. I send out emails, comments, ectera.......well, no more. Why should I waste my energy on people who don't take time out to think about others.

So, my personal myspace---deleted people.....
Twitter----deleted people
Facebook {don't know the addy}----they are all new--but time will tell!
personal email----next task and is #1
address book---you guessed it and #2

I am tired of only one person asking anything about me when I know over 75 people...that's just sad and really pathetic. That's my new year's resolution----EARLY!
If people are mad, offended, and want to start drama----well go ahead......I won't be around to hear it. Stress free life----that's what I live by.
Oh, the boyfriend/beau......yes, he is one of these people, and will get the same treatment as I have received from him. No contact and ignored!!

Update is here

So, finally, I am giving an update! I have been running here and there--it seems mad at the moment!! I have not begun working yet....but, it seems like one already. Insane the running around Kingwood/Atascocita/Humble---never have I ran so much. We went to the store last Tuesday and have only cooked 4-5 times complete meals....there were actually leftovers that we were eating. We have to pick up the photo guy between 5 and 6/6:30 in the evening and that doesn't give too much time to cook, does it?

Last Friday we had a shoot in the Galleria--so, Mom and I waited until we got down there to go and eat because there is no Boston Market where we live!

I was going to go to the Worksource--but I opted against it--can they really do the work I have already done? {websites, pro blog, youtube, ectera} I really don't think so. I was also going to apply for a position at The Little Gym of Kingwood--but the woman at the front desk acted as if she could not be bothered to answer a question. So, I decided right there not to fill out the application. An employee's attitude says alot. It says that I don't want to work there!

So...........that's the jobs! Oh, and Bath and Body works have not called me and are NOT going to. call it intuition....just a feeling that's it's not going to work. I really hate having such a strong 6th sense--but what can you do.

I do feel positive about the photographer--I don't know why, but I have not begun working {long story and personal as well}. But, Tuesday I was cleaning the studio {waiting/reception and office} and I'll clean the back--the actual studio section} Fun, fun....

The beau...whatever.....no word at all. This is what happens---I hear from him {usually after I email him} and we converse for about 2 weeks--then its all quiet again. I have went one whole month and nothing. The last time I spoke to him was October 24th! I am seriously thinking about not contacting him for anything--nothing at all. I have news to tell him--but I really feel he doesn't care. Oh well..... Ever since his spat at me in July, I really dont have the same feelings as I once did for him. Something extraordianry happen within a week of his blowup at me that completely made me not think of him and wouldn't really care if it were over. This is how strong this interaction was! A karma thing--and one that you cannot shake. He was my moment of zen---and that day was so unqiue and uplifting {the best day of my life}!

The 2nd best thing was getting my 14K---and I used that not for myself -- but to give to others when I did not have to. Funny, nothing worked out during that time in August and it brought me to where I am today--but, everyone around me is experiencing turmoil and I am not {and I have never been re-paid my loan and do need it to make the rent for two monthes}.

So, I have not had things go to my liking I got two things that I did not ask for---well, actually three. 14K..... a car..... and a "replacement".

Just watched a movie + a "relevation"

Today was interesting---had rehearsal, took a shower in Twisted Peppermint, cut hair {nice and short and managable}, watched Twilight {finally--after the all of the hoopla died down}, had dinner {bowtie pasta + fried chicken w/ four cheese alfredo sauce and Calif style veggies}. Am waiting for a movie to come on around 1AM -- can't get it On Demand.

Going back to Twilight---I read a blog "breaking down the book"....after I read it I said OUTLOUD --- What an idiot! Good lord. It takes all types of people to make up the world and a small percentage that I am witnessing/witnessed is really stupid. Really makes you wonder where the brains are located! But the breakdown really had a look on my face--are you serious? You wasted a chunk of time on a blog posting for this! Oh well......evidently no common sense {yes, moves across the country with hardly no financial resources---guess she didn't think he ecomony would go to hell in a hand basket.} Loser of the month!

Well, in other smart, grownup news........
Mom did get a job as a driver----in a Lincoln Cont'l..... Need I say more?? A nice car that she's not accountable for the gas/maintence. {When good things happen to good people} I rode in a Lincoln years ago--nice car! I might just look for a "holiday" job----would like to work at Bath and Body Works.

No other news to tell---boyfriend is doing better--I swear he has something up his sleeve---a surprise.

Just a note----I still live in the same place as I did in April 2008--had not had to move. The next move would be in a partnership {I'll just leave you hanging---think about it}.

Just sitting here.......

Well, the neighbors have OFFICIALLY moved out! There is a God! I am so happy. HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY!! Whew!

I have been talking with the beau {I guess I really should call him my boyfriend}. He's been fighting some dreadful illness and is going to the doctor to see what the problem is. He was sick in the beginning of this month and still not feeling well. His energy level was close to non-exsistant....and he's feeling just awful. Poor baby. But you know men....won't tell their loves they are feeling like sh*t. He's ex-Army--so that's worse---a suck it up and go on attitude. Well, at least he did tell me he's not feeling too good.

Mom might have a job {sorta like a caretaker/chauffer} as driving a man to work and do errands. She will get to keep the car in her care and he pays the gas, maintence, and everything else. That will be great for us!
UPDATE: She has the job--beginning Monday morn @ 5AM


The man who was interested in buying the biz---is not now....oh, well. Well just have to move another route.

Nothing else really a whole lot going on....Halloween coming around and then my father's anniversary {passing}----it should be better than last time.

Finally.... a post in how many days/weeks!!

I know I haven't written in a LONG time!!! I have been dealing with personal things {all are good}. I have been emailing/chatting my my beau {I guess he decided he did not want to loose me} {!!} I spent the past weekend listening him rant/rave! At least it is over and done--until another time. Now, things are back to normal and he is being sweet to me {for a mascaline man} and calling me affectionate names.
I logged onto myspace and listened to Kip's new song {Winger} - Deal with the Devil { I think}. Anyways, love, love that song...only thing is that its not availbe yet not until October. Damn!!!
I also saw his website up--very nice and professional looking. he's added a new biography for classical composing. From contemporary music to hard rock to classical.....one word -- WOW!!!Okay, two, AMAZING!
But back to personal things--itis getting more serious! Interesting.....

Visit Kip at his site..... www.kipwinger.com

Happenings {!!}

Well, here I write! I have been so busy. Still haven't bought anything for myself. I am listening my playlist on this blogger--Bedroom toys! you know what Simon was thinking about when he wrote it--bedroom toys....hmmm.... a Scorpio!! But, it's catchy!!

Busy bee have I been.......meeting this person, going here, paying this, eating here. Get some sleep...get up and repeat. What a life, huh? I figured I have been on a LONG A** vacation--so now, it's time to work. Ha Ha. My aunt is in the hospital---she fractured her shoulder---ouch. She's out of commision for at least 6 months--and Christmas is coming---oh hell!

So, we are waiting for the liscensce to arrive from Austin. The Crown Vic is in the shop---having more work that should have been done before! We talked business yesterday with a neighbor who is actually going to be helping us! Exciting!
I had a job interview this past Friday and was hired then she reniged and did not b/c my choreo did not depict classical ballet---hello--choreo!!!! Oh well, my gain at another place....I have another interview. And, the "new studio" where I supposed to work---well, I told them I was leaving! She did not know when the studio was opening, no enrollment....just a huge mess.
Well, my classes {Dancer...} begin this Wednesday.

I have pics from the road trip to up north!

Enjoyed my ballroom--but the manager was trying to gauge me on the price and tomorrow is my last class. If you'd tell me the truth and not lie you would have a succesful business and I would not leave....but, oh well, that's the way the cookie crumbles. But, I hate it b/c my teacher is Latin and cute and just so sweet!!!

My beau {ex--I dunno what he is anymore} sent me an email by and invite {u know like facebook has invited u....} to RDC's and my personal email. I guess he is trying to say "I messed up." I am like "really?!" Well...men, what do you say??!!

Am back

I have been sick all of last week and to boot my beau had to go home for a death in his family and had a layover in Houoston. He wanted to see me -- but felt terrible and all. He got upset {but, I think it was more of a clouded thinking and all. He told me it was over.} Put two and two together a death and not being able to see me is not clear judgement. Well, I have sent him various emails and all.

So, been sick and just got out two days ago and still kind of weak---but I feel better.

Have some news to share--but for now I'll post next time!!

A wonderful start to the week

Well, I know I haven't been on Blogger in 5 days--but real life does exsist outside of the internet. I heard from my sweetie {not the ex--he's known as the "ex"}. I wrote to him {sweetie} on Sunday evening and sent a couple of new pics. I did hear back from him and made my day--I cannot tell you! He said to me thanx for the beautiful pictures. {It didn't dawn on me that he said beautiful}. I remember when I was 20 him telling me that I was beautiful {as well pretty and more...}. It is funny....I think I like him better now than I did then--more settled and mature. It's not that the looks are anything to complain about---far from it. I once saw him in his dress blues and almost passed out. The man was so sexy!! Him being blonde and Latin didn't hurt one bit. But, yet, I always had a thing for Latin men.
I still am learning to be patient with him as he is taking courses to better himself in the longrun. But, he is so sweet and caring; amongst other things!
Well, I am off to read some of his letters. I have kept his letters from 16 years ago----is there something there with us??

Humour, my week, ballroom dance, new agey, and reflection

Who did you think it was going to be? Me in 1997--I think!

…..if you clicked onto the link--prepare yourself, sit down, don’t drink anything {you’ll see why}, and more I can’t think of right now.

A moment of humour….my dad, well, he was a character. He had this weird name for me. I really don’t know how he came up with it. He would call me Tawisha. But he’d say to everyone--How do you spell that? He’d say {now hold onto what ever you are sitting on--or lean against something} Too Wish Ugh! I am NOT kidding! Serious as cancer!
He was funny…sadly he passed 2000 November 01.

Today, I have to go to the store…I need my caffeine, I also have to do a flyer. This week…we’ll don’t exactly know what it holds. I do have to rehearse again. I also need to take some pics in a couple of costumes. That is going to be fun--out in the sun in stage makeup! Very fun. Not. I might limit myself to two days in the sun--who knows I will probably get a little tan and not trying to. All between that I have lunch date with the “ex”--we did talk about drinking and I need to see for myself to see how he is before I go making assumptions.

Currently listening to Home {Michael Buble} love this song--it is good for a ballroom waltz. Which I can do along with swing, tango, foxtrot, cha cha, rumba, samba….not a pro in ballroom though. I am trained fully in ballet, tap, jazz, pointe {dancing on toe}, lyrical…and some street/hip hop and modern. I can teach/choreograph all of it as well.

Enough of dance talk…
I am an avid fan of astrology {and study as well}---don’t tell me your birthday--I’ll do your chart. LOL. My grandmother started me on this. So, it is her fault.

On another subject----I am doing better w/ Twitter. These fans…..amazing! I think it is okay once in a while to go ga ga over Jim, ask him about the album, tour, ect. But it is annoying after a while. I am sure he is here to promote the upcoming album, but also just to socialise with people. You cannot wear career hat all of the time--your other hats have to be worn as well. This is just my opinion. I just don’t get it. I have seen them ask him and he might get annoyed with them asking him about this gig, that gig, Chile release date. I don’t think they realise he is a person first and foremost. Yes, he’s a celebrity--but he is human!

Well…..sorry for my ranting. If I offend anyone--sorry--just voicing my opinion.