Well, the month started out to be wonderful, But around the 15th it came to a halt. First of all, to clarify; I do not have a significant other. So, in going on, I write periodically on FB...usually good things that are happening, quirky things, on occasion I do write about things that are not pleasant. By meaning unpleasant, NO ONE still knows what happened in 2010. The people that I did know are no longer considered friends in my mind. People don't do what they did. Those are not friends.
In getting back to the issue. I send out fun, little sayings in joyful, friendly, and thoughful manners. Most of them are returned. But some are not. The same goes for emails/comments. Before I go any further, I want to say I don't always get around to everyone's comment/emails/statuses. But I do get back to at least 90% of them within 48 hours. I have to ask what type of people am I dealing with? Are people just so self asorbed these days? Is that what society has become?? While I am very hurt and angry at the reaction {meaning no action} I sort of feel sorry for the very same people.
In a couple of posts I have mentioned that I follow Jim. {Twitter and FB} Everyone does. I know he has a celebrity status, but, I don't gush over him. He is intelligent and I enjoy reading his posts as they are colourful as well. Nor, do I think of him as a 'famous person'. Like I have said many times previously, he is a person who has real problems, just like the rest of us. I do send him comments/messages. They are not the 'fan obsessed' type......I am not going to do that, that's insulting to me. Well, on the 15th, everything fell on my head. I woke up and realised I was doing all of the work {i.e I begin everything---comments, comments, and more}. Its like as if a huge rock fell on my head. I had sent him a cute message {or so I thought}--- 'Happy Valentine's Day....be sweet' {something like that}. I didn't see anyting wrong with it. Do you? Well, like I said I don't send anything that looks remotely like a fan gushing. I dont do that! There was no response.
I feel like this: If he feels like I am to much to be dealt with, then he shouldn't have never spoken to me in the first place. Surely, being earmarked as a celeb can't faze your morals. It can't be that far burried in the soul. It's just morals, you know? I never publize myself as a saint, but, more and more I find myself doing good as compared to others. So, I might as well say I am better than most people when it comes to loyality, faith, ethics, and rightousness. Maybe if I use that as a pretext I can actually reign above others in Christianity. I hate to say that--but its true. I know that's why alot of people hate me. Perhaps, he does as well......not hate, but a strong dislike. In any fact, I know what happens next--you rise up, dust off, and continue on doing the good you have always done. {but, while peparing for that next step---its hard not to feel slighted, hurt, and want to retaliate}
The whole aspect makes me feel as if he has no gumption to imagine how another feels. I just know that I have felt betrayed. I say that because I have defended many times when it comes to his work, singing, music....... when everyone else was chewing him up--I was sitting in the defense area saying no. Putting myself out there, and on the line. this is the thanks I deserve. Is it, really?
My next step, I dunno. Usually, when an incident like this occurs I erase that person out of my life. Like my dad used to say, "Everything happens for a reason".
This is something I did not expect. It really does speak volumes about him, though.....and now, I can see the forest for the trees. Perhaps, there is a reason behind my theory of believing that he is not Bono. {on a side note; he as songwriter saved my life when I was 22-Bono}
