What a crappy year it has been---only one thing that was new and is still in my life. The ex-Army guy---well, I guess he has fell off the face of the planet. I have not heard from him in 46 days {that's two months and 6 days}. But, on the other hand my ex has spoken to me since the mid of January of this year. Everyone says watch out--re: an ex and they root for the Army man--but I say who can get to the plate first. I have heard two negative comments about him from different sources {and one is the ex}. With the military one -- it's like I have discovered a "new person" and the ex--well, we know each other.
So.....a little over two months and not one email/IM from him. I don't care anymore. Because, if he wanted to be with me in some sense---46 days would not went by. So...I really don't care to hear from him again. I guess he made my mind and his up at the same time. Sometimes, I really want to sit down and compose an email to him stating at how he's totally ignored me. But then, the common sense kicks in and I think---he is going to get the same treatment as I got from him----ignored. In all honesty, I think he's done this on purpose hoping I will blame him and he can email {seriously!!} me and accuse me of 90 million things that I don't do right {according to him}.
The ex......well, the reason why he's an ex is way too personal + I see him more of a saint now. Perhaps, that is why contacted me in the first place. He has an agenda {always has} but it takes so long to come out you actually forget about the fact you are being 'baited".
Why can't people live honestly?
I am not going to do a recap---really no need to....... you know what happened I don't need to recant!
What is new is that I am sick. The weather turned to the mid 70's and boom.....sick - yes I am. I can eat right, but if the weather changes it doesn't matter. I had to change my medicine and took the first dosage and was wired--LITERALLY! Talking non-stop.
Christmas was alright---I'm not really into the actual day-nor, am I family orientated. I really like the before hand things. Now, just waiting for the new year----it has to be better. There's a Lunar Eclipse on December 31st....and for me its in my 5th house {love, creativity, and pleasure}. Now, with no beau--how in the hell is a new beginning/ending going to take place.
SIDENOTE: if you want to know what the eclipse touches in your life--look up Astrology Zone {b/c I don't work for free}.
Back to him {!} - I know you can feel these things happening a month earlier or later or around the actual day. Looking back I see I had a Solar in mid July {that's when the crap he caused begun} and someone came along temporarily to take my mind off of him. It was sort of a new start--just kind of weird though. Now this Friday, I have the same house as a lunar--an ending...honestly..... trying be objective as an astrologer, I think it already happen. I say that b/c an eclipse "eclipses" person out of your life. So, on this eclipse I have no idea what will happen---I do know that the ex emailed me twice on Christmas Day---let's me say, that's a landmark!
Well, I think I have talked long enough.......back to the apartment to do some more research. And another eclipse is on January 15th {in my house of friends----b/c in July I lost a couple of those}.
2009 was a time of learning who to trust and who not trust....and what a whopper of a year it has been for me {and them as well}
